You climb upon that fast
Tention speeds
Tention builds
It gets faster
and faster
Speed speed
More and more speed
Stop!
Youve hit a dead end.
You start, to read more slowly.
Your eyes move slower, youre pace, goes normal.
You feel relived, you have slowed down.
Your eyes are still wide and bold as you remember the experiance.
Your heartbeat is still there, you let out the wind from inside.
time to stand up, but your still tired.
You can feel your legs, yawwwwwn.
You've ripped my heart.
You've burned my life.
Cry me a river.
Bitch.
Now leave me alone.
Dont give me that look.
You know how i've felt.
You think i want to stay with you.
Your fucking with my mind.
Let go of my wrist,
i dont think so.
Just get away from me,
i dont care anymore.
Im gone.
I am unwanted, i am alone.
This is me, just look.
Dont assume, dont even think.
Walk past and ignore.
Soundless nights, the air is thin.
A whistle is sharp.
Not birds, a path.
Not a park, a step.
Further away than i was before.
Epic fail.
I see a rainbow, my eyes are closed.
A smile on my face, im dreaming.
reality comes with strong wind.
A wet, cold, mist.
The clouds darken above me,
and my home.
I am being laughed at.
The eyes are upon me.
Every-day, is the same.
She is there, laughing with them.
Thats what upsets me most.
Why is it so awkward when you walk past.
I find myself looking around,
for something other than you.
You do not look in my direction, you know how i feel.
Life could be worse.
I can get over this.
Remember when we first met?
In college, on that day.
Remember that smile?
The one you gave when you looked at me.
I think we should be together.
Who knows what the future holds.
I want to be with you,
Forever.
Those were the thoughts i had.
Remember the fun between us?
You lied to me.
I wish i could trust you.
You shouldnt have messed me around, theres no going back.
Youve made me feel like shit.
Smile again.
You got want you want.
You wont remember me.
I am just, a memory.
I know when i walk by your looking at me.
I know i do not look back.
I have never spoke to you, and i dont want to.
Dont take this the wrong way...
It wouldnt work out.
I dont want to say why.
I dont want to hurt you.
You have done nothing wrong.
It's me, really, it is.
I'm sorry.
You...
Me...
Never.
Should i believe what you tell me.
Do i trust what you say.
You have said it too me, it cannot be ignored.
I can not help but think...
Are you lying to me?
Would you lie to me?
I want to trust you...
But the past, will not change.
You say you will come.
You say this knowing i will wait for disappointment.
My hope is always, on chance.
50.
50.
I hope you know how i feel.
Think about it.
I hope you dont come.
I can do better than false hope.
You are steeling my life.
I have realized.
Leave me alone.
Please.
Headaches in the night.
Nightmares.
They don't go away.
She will always be there, standing as i remember.
The thought's of us together, she remain's in my head, as does her grave, until the end of time.
My memories are not lost or forgotten, they are remembered.
And i shal live with them.
Do not ask me.
You can findout for yourself.
I dont want to help.
Maybe i can't help.
Think what is right, use what you know.
Trust in yourself.
It is all you have left.
I cannot help.
I am sorry.
You say you will come.
You say this knowing i will wait for disappointment.
My hope is always, on chance.
50.
50.
I hope you know how i feel.
Think about it.
I hope you dont come.
I can do better than false hope.
You are steeling my life.
I have realized.
Leave me alone.
Please.
Should i believe what you tell me.
Do i trust what you say.
You have said it too me, it cannot be ignored.
I can not help but think...
Are you lying to me?
Would you lie to me?
I want to trust you...
But the past, will not change.
I know when i walk by your looking at me.
I know i do not look back.
I have never spoke to you, and i dont want to.
Dont take this the wrong way...
It wouldnt work out.
I dont want to say why.
I dont want to hurt you.
You have done nothing wrong.
It's me, really, it is.
I'm sorry.
You...
Me...
Never.
Remember when we first met?
In college, on that day.
Remember that smile?
The one you gave when you looked at me.
I think we should be together.
Who knows what the future holds.
I want to be with you,
Forever.
Those were the thoughts i had.
Remember the fun between us?
You lied to me.
I wish i could trust you.
You shouldnt have messed me around, theres no going back.
Youve made me feel like shit.
Smile again.
You got want you want.
You wont remember me.
I am just, a memory.
I am being laughed at.
The eyes are upon me.
Every-day, is the same.
She is there, laughing with them.
Thats what upsets me most.
Why is it so awkward when you walk past.
I find myself looking around,
for something other than you.
You do not look in my direction, you know how i feel.
Life could be worse.
I can get over this.
Deep and dark, the beast he lurks
Down below the rolling tides
Slowly he floats through the murk
Gleaming with phosphorous fires
Planks creak on through slapping waves
The echo through the silence skims
Fish startle from dark fleshy caves
As shivers leap through silent limbs
Mournful songs of lonely whales
Tremor and rise in rending loops
A great beak gapes, the music fails
A storm of thrashing ...
...ends this tail.
Sometimes I cry
When I think about it too much
When I dream about you too much
Sometimes I lie
And tell myself we aren't for each other
But I know It's a lie
When I see it in your eyes
Sometimes I find
That letter you wrote me
And I read it aloud
Just so I can remember
The way your voice sounds
Sometimes I wonder
If you think the same
About me
When you look at her
When you say her name
Do you see me?
Headaches in the night.
Nightmares.
They don't go away.
She will always be there, standing as i remember.
The thought's of us together, she remain's in my head, as does her grave, until the end of time.
My memories are not lost or forgotten, they are remembered.
And i shal live with them.
Welcome to my mind of writing.
Pre-warning:- Words can be dangerous, i am not responsible for your actions.
Evidently, read and enjoy.
Emphisis cannot be shown by words...that is why i have suggested DA allow "recording submissions" alongside the written piece.
The down side - obviously, as always the immature people will abuse this.
A special thanks to all my watchers for there ongoing support.
Titles of submissions that may or may not be coming up :-
Lonely man
Letting go
Capture my attention
Alone
Homeless
It's not true
Lyrical madness
Your negativity upsets me
The end
Im back on DA after a long break :D, i have cleared all